Once, twice, three times....

So I am apparently unlucky in "love". Letting my walls down gets me nowhere but alone to nurse the loss of a friend... No matter how I feel about them. Love, Like...building a friendship. It is sooo easy to just push me aside. That is how I feel. So why put myself in these situations? I don't know. Because they make me feel good? Because these situations make me feel special. Because maybe I'm super naive and just fall into any one who says I'm pretty??? I don't know but I'm tired of letting you past these walls...I'm tired of being left...no matter what the reason. I'm tired of wanting....I'm tired of hurting..I'm tired tired tired...!!!!! HF I'm just soooo tired of feelin like I'm not good enough..!! Just so tired