Love and Life

Yesterday was Valentine's Day...and i was jaded about it....I had started seeing someone in Nov and i thought "maybe it will last" which it didn't...it;s kinda sad...we still kinda talk..but the cuddling..adn the making out..and just spending time with him was good...adn i thought about that a lot yesterday....well..more than yesterday....i have no problem being single...but it was nice to have someone....i know love is out there for me...and i am kinda patiently waiting..but one can run out of patience..haha...anyway...that is that...i shall end with a song

LOVE STINKS....yeah yeah
LOVE STINKS....yeah yeah

haha...but you should

• live for the momen
• take the best out of past experiences
• don't worry...be happy..haha

Time Flies....

I have taken forever to write in here...and it's not like i don't have anything to say...there have been a couple good things that have happened...and a couple of bad things...we have had some deaths in the family, but it only makes us stronger as a unit....that's what has happened with my Grandmother being sick....I was sitting at Christmas...looking at her...and she had forgotten if she had taken her meds....and it hit me how sick she is...and i had to stop thinking that she will be there forever....i keep that to myself...but i have a friend who let me talk and cry..and he held my hand....and wiped a few of my tears....and rubber my cheek and made me feel better...his name is Gregor...this is him.... in the background. I'm admitting a lot of things to myself.....we were "supposed" ta be dating
who knows what happened there...BUT he was very good for me...helped me see a lot of things about myself...helped me to get on the ball about other things....*shrugs*....we shall see
There new year is here....and i am doing a lot of changes...which should make for a good 2007.
I'm taking control.....gaining strength...striving for both spiritual and physical...soo look out
Here's to bigger and better and...of course.....funnier...ME..haha....wait...i'm already funny